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READ: How I was abused by Pastor Biodun Fatoyinbo of COZA – Ese Walter, former church member

by Oge Okonkwo

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Social media has gone into a frenzy with this written confession from a lady called Ese Walter, on her alleged affair with the senior pastor of the Common Wealth Of Zion Assembly (COZA), Biodun Fatoyinbo.

It is important to note that at the time these allegations were raised, there was no official statement released by COZA or Pastor Biodun Fatoyinbo.

Read her confessions below:

Keep an open mind as you read this because this is just one side of the story. A lady named Ese Walter (pictured above) is accusing a pastor with the Common Wealth Of Zion Assembly of manipulating her sexually/spiritually. I’m hoping to get the pastor’s side of the story later…that’s if he’s willing to talk. Read Ese’s story, which she shared on her blog, below…

This article contains stories that most ‘church people’ don’t want to address. So, if you are one of those living in denial and covering up crap going on in the church, this is where you should stop reading. Thanks for stopping by.

Now, for the rest of us, please sit down and switch on your open mind. I want to talk about something I have kept bottled up inside for longer than necessary. I have also decided to use real names, as my defense for any accusation of slander is justification. I tell the truth, the whole truth and nothing but. However, feel free to throw your doubt around but know that I am past the shaming game (where victims of abuse are shot down by blame) I am no longer a victim but a survivor who is sharing her experience to help others caught in same web of abuse, guilt and shame. We only get to live once right? So here, it goes…
I recently came to know this event too was abuse (recently here means about 6 months ago). It has literally been eating me up having to drive by another billboard advertising preachers, or hearing his name, or even trying to ask about the validity of the entire salvation story and whether or not there is a God that truly watches over his people. That being said, I’m just going to say it as it is. This is a recap of my affair with Pastor Biodun Fatoyinbo of COZA (Common Wealth Of Zion Assembly) Abuja chapter. This affair I have come to know as a form of abuse as you would see the different elements of abuse very present.

I met Pastor Biodun Fatoyinbo many years ago. I was getting bored of the church I was attending and someone suggested COZA. At the time, I had never heard about it. My friend said, go there, I’m sure you would enjoy the word. But he also gave me a strong warning. He said he would advice that I remain a member only and not join the workforce. I agreed. The first time I attended COZA, I felt it was my church and decided I was going to plant my ass there. About eleven months had gone by and I was still attending the services quietly and faithfully. I really did like the church. One day a worker in the church approached me that the senior pastor wanted to see me.

Me? I thought. Why would the senior pastor want to see me? Not the second man but the head nigga in charge? Ok na! I started to think my sin was oozing so bad the pastor could tell I needed Jesus. (Poor old me.) I saw him at the end of the second service (they had two services at the time) and he said to me that he would like me to work with him. I knew I had no intentions of becoming a pastor so I had to ask in what capacity. He said he’d like for me to join a department, preferably the Pastoral Care Unit (PCU).

A few weeks later, against my friend’s advice not to join the workforce, I was a PCU member. All of a sudden, I had some status in church. I was ‘somebody.’ Dress had to be on point, hair, shoes and what not… As workers, we were literally trying to outshine each other or so it seemed. Anyways, I felt like I was a privileged member of an elite circle. Hehehe. (It did feel good though, for the most part.)

About a year after joining the workforce, I was on my way to London for a Masters degree program that would last two years. As was the rule for workers travelling, I wrote to say I would be away for 2 years and Pastor Biodun Fotoyinbo asked that I keep in touch by sending him my number and email when I had settled in London so he “makes sure I continue in the faith” because according to him, people loose their faith when they leave home and he wanted to make sure I didn’t. So, on that note, as soon as I got a phone line in London, I was sure to call ‘my pastor’ to say I arrived safe, had settled in and also gave my phone number.

We had spoken a few times especially when COZA started to stream online. I always watched and would give feedback on quality of production and share a little bit on the challenges I faced settling in a new land. One evening, Pastor Biodun Fatoyinbo called me that he was coming to London and needed me to help him make some hotel bookings as the person who was meant to do it couldn’t get it done (this was rather strange as I had never been involved in his travel itinerary) Later that day, he said it had been sorted and my help would not be required but that he would like me to arrange a cab to pick him up from Heathrow. I was happy to help my pastor from Nigeria and even saw it as a privilege. (I would later come to learn that all of this was a calculated attempt to hatch a plan that I suspect was set in motion when I was asked to join the workforce.)
The cab guy was there to get him the next day and when he arrived, he called to ask why I didn’t accompany the cab to pick him up (again, this was strange but I stopped my mind from overanalyzing the situation as I knew I had no business with his visit to London) About two hours later, he called me and said he would like to see me. When I arrived his hotel, I called from the reception but he asked that I come upstairs. I got to the room and tried to stop my mind from thinking why I was going to his room. As he opened the door and invited me in, I had to speak to my heart to stop its palpitations. My better judgment asked me not to go into the room but the kind of reverence I had for Pasotr Biodun Fatoyinbo bordered on fear and I steeped into that room.
“Care for a drink?” Asked Pastor Biodun Fatoyinbo.
“No sir,” I said.
“You don’t have to be shy Ese, even if it’s alcohol, feel free and order what you want.” I wasn’t sure I heard my pastor asking me to order alcohol. I imagined it was a test and ignored the voice inside that was saying, “I’d have henny and coke please.” He proceeded to ask how I had been coping in London and if I was a committed member of any church. He also said he thought there was something special about me and wanted to know that I had not strayed from my faith. I really thought he had heard I was doing something I shouldn’t while in London but tried my best to focus on the conversation instead of my straying thoughts. He kept telling me to relax and feel comfortable with talking to him. After a few minutes, he asked that we go to the roof of the hotel as his room was a pent suite and had a connecting door to the roof.

While there, he sat on a reclining chair and asked me to come sit on his laps. This was a bit awkward for me and I froze for a moment as I asked why. He said he had told me to feel free with him and loosen up. I found myself strolling to sit on his laps. At that moment, I felt like a little girl who was experiencing something her mind couldn’t fathom. He asked me to kiss him and all I could think about was seeing him preach on the pulpit back in COZA Abuja, Nigeria, which was my home church. He again said ‘feel free Ese.’ And asked again, that I kiss him.

A few hours later, let’s just say, we were rolling under the sheets. It felt as though my mind had paused. I am not saying I was jazzed, (although it’s possible I was in some trancelike state and didn’t know it but I just was so afraid that I couldn’t say or think otherwise.) That was the beginning of this affair. A sexual affair that went on for a little over a week, DAILY!
I can hear somebody’s mind thinking, ‘well, you weren’t raped.” And I remember a pastor I opened up to when I couldn’t take all the mind games asking if I seduced him. No, I didn’t seduce him and no, I wasn’t raped but I felt trapped in this affair. Come to think of it, how could I have seduced him when I wanted nothing from him? I mean, I was too busy minding my business in London trying to get through with my masters program and I was overly comfortable. And even if I wanted to seduce anyone, it wouldn’t be a married man, not to mention a married pastor.
What I couldn’t reconcile the whole time, was how the same person who preached against the very things we were doing (i.e drinking in pubs, fornicating, committing adultery) was the same person endorsing and encouraging it.

At some point, I got really confused about what Pastor Biodun Fatoyinbo and I were doing that I had to ask how he handles it. I will never forget what he said to me. He said and I quote, “I will teach you a level of grace that you don’t understand.” My mind couldn’t fathom that somehow grace was enough covering for not just fornication on my path, adultery on his path and the many lies that was bound to follow what we were doing that was clearly abominable. I somehow dealt with the thoughts and fears that followed on my path. He had said to me that he wanted me to be his girlfriend and he would take me around the world and spoil me with money and things. Somehow, money had never been one of the things that motivated me (I am from a home where all my needs have been adequately met) In all my ‘badness’ through finding myself, I never did things I did for money but more of rebellion against rules and authority.

Pastor Biodun Fatoyinbo also said to me that he had a dream where I exposed what was happening to the media. Said it was all over the place and that people were calling me the girl that caused chaos in COZA. He also said I should remember the bible said to “touch not God’s anointed.” I immediately started to rebuke the devil and said I could never do anything like that. I was almost swearing with my entire family as I thought really I had touched God’s anointed by submitting my body to be used. Little did I know at the time that all of these were ways to mess with my mind and even manipulate my thoughts.
Fast-forward a few months later, I was back in Nigeria and my church had become uncomfortable. Anytime I sat in church and listened to Pastor Biodun preach, I felt shame. I finally sent him a message saying I wasn’t comfortable anymore. I was confused and needed to talk about what had happened. He said I should meet him to talk and I did. It was a really weird meeting for me especially when he tried to kiss me at our meeting. I finally realized at this point that he couldn’t help me. I thought God was angry with me and I couldn’t pray so I decided to withdraw completely from COZA. This was the beginning of my mental torture. I couldn’t talk to my family because already, I was the only one attending a different church and somehow my mom never liked the idea. As the days went by I tried to use drinking and smoking to cover up the deep shame and guilt I was battling with. But as soon as the high was over, the thoughts came back and I felt stuck like I couldn’t move forward.
I felt I had to talk to someone and I decided to speak to my then good friend, Ernest Akale but unfortunately for me, Mr. Ernest did not have the capacity to hold what I said to him. He broke down completely the days that followed and I found myself having to pause how I was feeling and what I was struggling with to help my friend be strong. After a while, he withdrew from not just me but his then fiancé and friends. I had to then tell the fiancé what had caused it (she suspected we were having an affair so I had to clear the air) To my surprise she was a lot stronger than her man and told me to suck it up (I’m paraphrasing). She said if she were me, she wouldn’t leave the church but stay to torment Pastor Biodun and collect money from him. Ok! That sounded extreme for me, as my intention was not to blackmail but to heal my broken self. Anyways, I finally found the courage to speak to my then unit head who said he was going to talk to Pastor Biodun but didn’t have the liver to do so. Before long, the story was spreading and naturally getting twisted.
I went to a new church and it seemed like the COZA bug had chased me there. The pastor would always refer to COZA as some example and each time that was done, it seemed like a spear was thrust through my chest. One day, I broke down in the service and started crying uncontrollably, as I couldn’t take another mention of COZA and the pictures it painted in my head.

Very long, boring story cut short, for the last 5 months I gave the whole church thing a big space and break. I wasn’t sure I believed in God. I wasn’t sure I understood what it meant when people said ‘Jesus saves” and I definitely wasn’t sure how to deal with the mental torture that was affecting not just me but my relationships with family and friends. I was very unstable, fearful and worst of all guilty. I got a chance to talk to Pastor Folarin of COZA Lagos Chapter, popularly called Pastor flo about everything. I made an effort to reach out to him because I realized the right thing to do was talk to an elder in the church and seek some sort of remedy to a wrong I believed had been done me.
Instead, Pastor Flo said, Pastor Biodun had confessed to him and they had ‘talked’ about it and somehow that was supposed to be Ok. He asked what it was I wanted coming to talk to him about it when I did, I told him I realized what happened between Pastor Biodun Fatoyinbo and I was wrong and not just that I felt abused and manipulated. I also said I thought it was wrong for Pastor Biodun to go on preaching without taking time to deal with his personal character flaws. I said I thought he was danger to all the young women that attended the church. Come to think of it, maybe he meant if I wanted something monetary or material (as someone had suggested when I opened up to her) but the truth is, I never wanted his money (or is it the church member’s money.) All I wanted was to meet with him and have him accept that he misled me, betrayed his wife and the church he pastors. I wasn’t the only lady in COZA who had been a victim of his sexcapades and manipulative patterns but I was the one who could come back after months of struggle with not just my faith but also my affair with him. And I wanted to set things right. I wanted to talk to Pastor Biodun Fatoyinbo maybe for closure and I felt like I needed an apology because he played the“touch not my anointed” card to keep me locked in guilt, shame and fear when all along it was a calculated plan and I dare say, it started when he asked me to join the workforce.

Not to mention the audacity to talk about teaching me a level of grace I didn’t understand. I had no intention of understanding a grace that would permit me to go on doing things that were wrong and what’s worse having to carry the burden for almost a year.

Different surprising advises came up in the weeks that followed the rumour making rounds. I was told to hush because Pastor Biodun Fatoyinbo had been a cultist in the past and could send people to shut me up. All my so-called friends in COZA withdrew from me and treated me like I had the plague. What was worse was Pastor Flo finally saw my then pastor to ‘talk’ about what had happened with Pastor Biodun and lied that it happened once and was a mistake. My question then became, ‘do these people even care how broken I had become?’ ’do they care about the emotional and spiritual welfare of the people they were pastoring?’ The sad answer was NO. Most of us old members of COZA kept leaving but they couldn’t care less. What was important was to keep growing the church and having more and more cars with stickers that read “More than enough.”  Back then, I always felt horrible when I saw another car drive past me with the sticker. I was breaking, I was struggling but no one could help. All they could do was ask me to hide so Pastor Biodun’s goons don’t hurt me. And then the interesting one was if I had evidence to prove my claim. Let me just say here that, it isn’t a claim, it’s a confession to free me from all of the guilt and shame I have had to live with for no reason at all. (That being said, I have evidence to prove all I have said here, the latest being a 58 minutes recording of my meeting with Pastor Flo a few months back)

This is my confession and I cannot begin to describe how much weight has been lifted off of my shoulders just pouring the truth out about what went down. So, to all my ex COZA friends gossiping about me, get your facts right. To those who said they’d help me deal with the pain but didn’t, I forgive you, I have learnt how to deal with it and I am doing just fine. To those who fear for my safety saying Pastor Biodun would send people to shut me up, I really have gone past fearing for my life. To live is gain and to die is Christ (or how does Paul say it again?) And to the only person who ever supported me through it all, thank you, I am learning to be brave. Please don’t think I am perfect in all of this but in line with living my authentic life and putting all forms of abuse behind me, this is where I press the stop button and stop the bleeding. This is where I break the silence and call the church to stand up for what it has been commissioned to do. If you will not enter the Kingdom, please don’t stop others who are trying to enter.

I still remember when I used to nurse the idea of digging up emails, text messages, hotel billings (as once I used my card to pay for his room when his master card failed to work) to prove there was an affair. It was pathetic. Why for the love of heaven was I trying to dig up evidence? I am satisfied setting the record straight. I am ready for any shaming or bashing that would follow because the truth is, because of what I have suffered and come through, I am really not moved by what people say or think about me anymore. I am a stronger woman and a damn abuse survivor seeking to connect with other victims of abuse to show them how to deal with the shame, hurt and guilt and how to come out stronger. Turning their mess into their message.

I am Ese Walter and I have gone through all forms of abuse from family, boyfriends, my ex pastor and some strangers not to break me, but so I stand and so I qualify to help victims. My scars have qualified me and when all is said and done, I will still be standing. I AM WOMAN, I BEND, I DON’T BREAK!
Cheers to the freaking weekend!!!


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Comments

  • It really takes some guts to come out and make such a confession, I salute your courage.

    Felix August 23, 2013 4:52 pm
  • We need to hear pastor biodun side of the story. And also your evidence.

    ronke August 23, 2013 5:41 pm
  • Hmmm, na waa. I’m learning to make JESUS my standard…

    tilewa August 23, 2013 5:46 pm
    • Good thinking.

      The Alter Ego's Alter August 23, 2013 6:49 pm
  • This should be a lesson to all running to hear the word of man instead of the word of God. Most preachers are not born again but are mere motivational speakers. Youths prefer to go to assemblies where preachers would never mentioned unrighteousness and are encouraged to go on with all sort of immoralities. Definitely, there would always be consequences. Pastor Biodun and Sis Walter only need genuine repentance and God will be merciful unto them, thank God the affairs did not result into pregnancy.

    Paul August 23, 2013 6:16 pm
  • Lord have mercy

    omotaje joy August 23, 2013 9:27 pm
  • One will need to b careful be4 commenting nd condemning dis act as the Devil has been known to use people to tarnish d image of d men of God. But dis is not say that it may not b possible. D Pastor need to say his own side of d story. But wot can a sinner like me say other than God have mercy.

    omotaje joy August 23, 2013 9:38 pm
  • My Dear Ese, you don’t have to make us know all these. If you sin against God, ask HIM for forgiveness for HE is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all our unrighteousness. You don’t hv to bother wether ur pastor stopped or not. All U need do is to sin no more. We all have sinned and fall short of God’s glory.

    UjU August 23, 2013 9:51 pm
    • Uju, are you for real? You sit there to type to a fellow woman who has been shown hatred and been thrown into the valley of dry bones to rot because she made a mistake?Let me assume this story is true…would you just sit down and watch yourself used, trashed, spat and trampled upon without reacting? i am happy you said we all have sinned, you are right but you see if the pastor is guilty, it means he has been doing it to others and only his victims and God knows that but there is always a time when the cup of iniquity becomes full. Like i said , if the pastor is guilty, he wont survive it if he tries to hide and lie about it, the girl has opened up, it s left to him to respond. Sweetheart, its not easy to keep such things, she ll die of insanity

      007 August 24, 2013 10:44 pm
  • Fine…maybe u guys had an affair but stop playing d victim. I like 2think every adult is responsible 4 their actions

    Debola August 23, 2013 10:14 pm
  • U already moved on according to u so there’s no need 4 all this…

    Debola August 23, 2013 10:35 pm
    • Forget the rubbish coming from this useless ashewo. This confession is intended to destroy the pastor. Most COZA girls I knw seduce men and then fake up a quarrel. In between they record ur conversatiions to make it seem like u r victimizing them. I was a victim. Ese, u b thief and blackmailer! Get a good job that can pay d bills for the sort of long throat lifestyle u crave. IDIOT! Na for social media u wan become motivational speaker? Okay, tell us why u kept a 58 mins recording if u didn’t have it in mind to blackmail him? Did he rape you? These COZA bitches are evil. Na for there retired ashewo and prostitutes plenty. They are looking for men to devour and use. I personally know this girl called ESE. She embarasses young prospective guys who approach her, despite the promising future they have. Why? Because they probably can’t afford the sort of luxury she craves for. People in the media, wherever u see this bitch, stone her to death. She is Jezebel’s daughter. On one hand she claims she’s dying from the hurt inside, but on the other, she again says she is strong and poised to bring dow the hammer with the fury of hell on pastor Biodun. Who u dey deceive. Ese, u r a disgrace to the Urhobo nation. Check out how successful people like myself and other youths from the tribe have turned out through hard and honest work. We (urhobos) are people of dignity and character. Do NOT rubbish us shameless seed of ‘RUGBERE’. Yes, that is her real surname. FOOL, FOOL, FOOL. If u feel broken, there’s the Judas option; kill yourself! Depopulate this world off people like yourself. You have a dirty and stinking soul. If you think this will make u d next OPRAH, u’ve got it wrongly figured out, because nobody would want to have ur face seen on the screen of our TVs. Masters Degree holder, Ese, get a life! I guess you didn’t know moving up the ladder of life would prove difficult, did u? Besides, who sent in this picture used? You look fucking ugly in real life.lol. C’mon, Pastor Biodun I can vow never had a thing going with u, u skinny b***h I know.

      Sean Efetega August 23, 2013 11:13 pm
      • Thanks Tega.cos this her “openess” really baffled me.i have known pastor Biodun since undergraduate days, even pastor flo.these are men of dignity and I integrity. I know God will vindicate his son and servant, pastor Biodun.

        ronke August 24, 2013 6:21 am
        • Really??? You know him??? You be God??

          asmau August 24, 2013 7:25 am
          • Ths gal is a fool,what abt the other guys u hve slePt with did u go to the Media? He ask u to kiss him u did,did he force U,? Go to hell,gals in Coza are cheap and I have done them.

            ehi Osara August 25, 2013 5:47 am
        • Go to hell! ‘Knowing’ pst biodun and his advocate doesnt vindicate them,does it? Afterall,*life* we are always told *is dynamic*.Devils always appear as angels. So,dont think because pst biodun is an angel in your view does mean he really is one.

          Abdul Ganiyu A Mumin August 24, 2013 3:32 pm
          • Osara, hahahahahahaha. I’m sure ‘Observer’ is chopping the left over and remnant. That of course is why he is ready to die. E nor know say e dey wan die for sour beans! Hahahahahaha!!!!!!!!! For him mind e think say na beta package e carry, e nor know say na public toilet e dey defend.

            Efetega Sean August 25, 2013 9:34 pm
      • Efetega, you posted this exact response on Facebook as Ezrel Paul Tabiowo. Who are you really cos you now appear dodgy! I want to assume if you know Pst Biodun so well to deserve this level of vouching from you, you must be a ‘christian’ also.

        However, the content of your response does NOT depict so!!! Your words are so vile and venomous laced with the ‘F’ word here & there! You aren’t God and in no position to judge. You may not realise but your words seem to be coming from a very bitter and rejected place. Probably she rejected you once and I’m not surprised. No sane woman would tolerate such level of hate & despicable fluid flow through a man!

        My question to you is this: Are you ALWAYS with the said pastor 247? If your answer is NO then zip it up…your mouth that is!

        Observer August 24, 2013 9:51 am
        • Observer, here’s the thing: there’s nothing more insulting than trying sway the sympathy of people by sheer manipulation of their sensibilitites. What Ese is doing using the media is no different from what she has accused pastor Biodun of doing, if not even worse. Why do I say this, you’d want to ask?

          Do a quick read through of her narrative from the paragraph I singled out.

          Common psychology tells me instinctively that the sentiment expressed there-in is devoid of any feeling of remorse or guilt.

          And to think she claims she was in a “trance” when it all went down is just laughable. I consider same an insult on the average man’s intelligence.

          “A few hours later, let’s just say, we were rolling under the sheets. It felt as though my mind had paused. I am not saying I was jazzed, (although it’s possible I was in some trancelike state and didn’t know it but I just was so afraid that I couldn’t say or think otherwise.) That was the beginning of this affair. A sexual affair that went on for a little over a week, DAILY!

          Now to another question: Can you tell me that the last sentence which stated that they both engaged in some form of daily sexual marathon was actually under the suggestion from Pastor Biodun? Hahahahaha. Who was always leaving somewhere for the rendevouz point, which in this case was Pastor Biodun’s bedroom?

          I do not need to know Bidodun on a personal level to know what some desperate COZA chicks can do. Like I mentioned, I was a victim once at the hands of a lady I have no intention of identifying. She attempted the blackmail trick but I was way to smart to fall for same.

          That said, how does it feel reading me without the F word. Do I come across as an easy walk-over. Take advise and drop the ball here.

          Sean Efetega August 24, 2013 11:28 am
          • Mr/Mrs/Miss Efetaga,for the love of heaven,i implore u,never make hasty judgements.Just because Ese was bad doesnt mean she would be bad forever.If this is a frame up as you claim,then why not leave the almighty to vindicate the innocent.Remember Markus Antonio’s words ‘falsehood is always weak no matter how strong it appears….’ God bless you

            Abdul Ganiyu A Mumin August 24, 2013 3:02 pm
          • Knock yourself out with your crusader boy and of course while at it, you can give yourself a pat on the back for being able to write this time without using curse words!

            I’m on the fence as far as this matter is concerned till the entire story unfolds. I wonder how you’d feel then if indeed the supposed allegations are true!

            When the story of pastor Albert Odulele (I attended his church for a few years) broke in London, I couldn’t wrap my head around it because it was just too surreal but alas it was true and justice was served….did his time in prison!

            My point is, the fact that someone tried doing the same to you does not negate or validate this story. Until all facts are in place, it’s best to watch as this unfolds instead of blindly spitting venom. You can’t really vouch for anyone, really you can’t expect you have the power to know what people do in secrecy or behind closed doors.

            As a christian, Jesus is the ONLY standard and for the reason, nothing any Christian does no longer takes me by surprise!

            Observer August 24, 2013 4:15 pm
          • Sean, you are obviously as guilty as this pastor, otherwise i can’t understand why you are reacting so violently. even the pastor himself is not reacting in this manner. Your guilty is really pricking you. Shame on you.

            Bee August 25, 2013 5:06 pm
      • You are a disgrace to all that Christ stands for !

        JamesStan August 25, 2013 4:29 pm
  • @ Sean you’re taking this way too personally. Bitter much? Save your energy, Pastor-Biodun-in-Disguise. Efe has told her story. We believe her.

    Khadijah August 23, 2013 11:33 pm
    • Hahahah! Khadijat, we seem to be on the same page. You ended your comment by sayin “Efe has told her story”. Efe is my name, Ese is hers. Thanks for the vote of confidence!

      Sean Efetega August 24, 2013 12:35 am
  • Forget the rubbish coming from this useless ashewo. This confession is intended to destroy the pastor. Most COZA girls I knw seduce men and then fake up a quarrel. In between they record ur conversatiions to make it seem like u r victimizing them. I was a victim. Ese, u b thief and blackmailer! Get a good job that can pay d bills for the sort of long throat lifestyle u crave. IDIOT! Na for social media u wan become motivational speaker? Okay, tell us why u kept a 58 mins recording if u didn’t have it in mind to blackmail him? Did he rape you? These COZA bitches are evil. Na for there retired ashewo and prostitutes plenty. They are looking for men to devour and use. I personally know this girl called ESE. She embarasses young prospective guys who approach her, despite the promising future they have. Why? Because they probably can’t afford the sort of luxury she craves for. People in the media, wherever u see this bitch, stone her to death. She is Jezebel’s daughter. On one hand she claims she’s dying from the hurt inside, but on the other, she again says she is strong and poised to bring dow the hammer with the fury of hell on pastor Biodun. Who u dey deceive. Ese, u r a disgrace to the Urhobo nation. Check out how successful people like myself and other youths from the tribe have turned out through hard and honest work. We (urhobos) are people of dignity and character. Do NOT rubbish us shameless seed of ‘RUGBERE’. Yes, that is her real surname. FOOL, FOOL, FOOL. If u feel broken, there’s the Judas option; kill yourself! Depopulate this world off people like yourself. You have a dirty and stinking soul. If you think this will make u d next OPRAH, u’ve got it wrongly figured out, because nobody would want to have ur face seen on the screen of our TVs. Masters Degree holder, Ese, get a life! I guess you didn’t know moving up the ladder of life would prove difficult, did u? Besides, who sent in this picture used? You look fucking ugly in real life.lol. C’mon, Pastor Biodun I can vow never had a thing going with u, u skinny b***h I know.

    Sean Efetega August 23, 2013 11:46 pm
  • Wow,is all I can say. This type of thing happens a lot in the black church (to include the US and the continent of Europe). I am a black American and I can tell you I have heard these type of situations so much. Its shameful because we in the black church hold our pastors in such high regard but there are those that take advantage of that fact. To add another level is the fact that women outnumber men sometimes 5 to 1 in most churches. This makes church a playground for wolves in sheep clothing masquerading as men of God. A lot of women are vulnerable because they are coming out of bad relationships and see the church & pastor as a safe haven. As the author stated she definitely wasn’t innocent in this whole fiasco but should have had more spiritual assistance when she tried to correct her wrong. The so called ministers were more concerned with keeping up images instead of making sure the house of God was not made a mockery of. Shame on them. Pastors are not God and when they “fall” they should be openly rebuked so this sin doesn’t spread in the camp (household of faith).

    Pamela August 23, 2013 11:56 pm
  • Saying it out is the best thing you have done for yourself. Pray earnestly to God for forgiveness I Am with you in this prayer. Cheers

    Deacon Idoga August 24, 2013 12:00 am
  • Its sad how much we hold our pastors to a high regard, they are only human they aren’t resistant to sin and the misuse of power. It takes the Grace of God. so maybe we need to pray for them as well. The world is a terrible place where the people we hold in the highest regard disappoint us. Only God can help us

    titi August 24, 2013 6:41 am
  • Babe, u yab! What conscience are u trying to free and made u put urself in such bad spotlight? Don’t u want 2 get married? Congrats the weight has been lifted off ur mind or chest or wherever.
    Pause to think for a while; @ what point exactly did u decide d claimed relationship is wrong? If it was from d beginning as claimed, it wouldn’t have happened more than once! But when u got back to Nigeria and discovered there were more pretty babes in ur unit u sense of jealousy was pricked and u just want 2 get even for not getting any attention again! If u really are a matured lady, think before reacting again. Shit happens, u’ve confided in people bad enough why social media even with ur pix!? Will qny Nigerian family be proud to accept u as a daughter-in-law? U should ave stopped to think of the rippling effect b4 going all out in dis ur war.
    No company will also want 2 hire someone who takes are war 2 d social media if salaries are delayed or some policies don’t go down well with her! Babe, u really yab! I cannot list all the negative effects this ur action could bring to u. Best of luck with ur freed mind!

    Taye Taiwo August 24, 2013 6:43 am
  • It takes a lot of courage to do this.. thumbs up… a wound that is covered never heals but rots… don’t worry about your future for its all in Gods hands and not any man.. God bless you..

    asmau August 24, 2013 7:23 am
  • Courage to do what? To have consensual sex with a man then term it abuse and manipulation? She is a joker. The pastor is also a joker

    Ada August 24, 2013 8:13 am
    • Alex, Google my name to see how well I do my job. If u want to advise me on how its done, come and wear my shoes if u can.

      Sean Efetega August 24, 2013 10:59 am
      • Every single result returned by querying “your name” on Google came back with Ese Walter attached to it. #Weird! #SuspiciousBehaviour!

        Observer August 25, 2013 1:34 am
        • Try hook, line and sinker for a change! Let the mind games begin!

          Sean Efetega August 25, 2013 3:29 am
          • Clearly, your vision is obscured if you can’t see the game is on you, a one-man game being played all by yourself. #GoonBehaviour

            Observer August 25, 2013 10:35 am
  • Ese is now a free woman, go and sin no more.

    Sam August 24, 2013 12:18 pm
  • Youre just a pathetic biatch……

    Me August 24, 2013 1:53 pm
  • What a pathetic tale.I’m broken i must confess.However sister,there are a thousand and one things wrong with the story. Why tape/record your conversation with pst flo is a question begging for a reply.Care to do so. Anyway,a thousand salute to your courage.Whether it’s true or not is not my concern.All that matters is the lesson i learnt from it.

    Abdul Ganiyu A Mumin August 24, 2013 3:13 pm
    • Now you just woke me from my deep slumber!

      Speaking of Hypnosis, which in depth psychology passes for the phenomenon somnambulism, is invariably referred to as the “nervous sleep”.

      While being described or looked at as an artificial nervous sleep, same is brought on in many ways: by fixity of look, by visual concentration upon a brilliant object, by convergence of the axes of vision, by a sustained and monotonous sensation, by a vivid sensory impression such as that produced by the sound of a gong, by a brilliant light, etc. During the act of sexual intercourse, it is absolutely impossible to engage the above means on a subject, reason being that utmost concentration is required for optimal effect.

      Besides, all these means produce the effect only upon one vitally important psychic condition — the consent of the subject, the surrender of his/her will to the hypnotist.

      Note this: No one can be hypnotized against his or her will; but once a person has given himself up to an operator, and gone through the exercises by which the effect is obtained – which does not include any act sexual – the operator can put him to sleep at pleasure, and even without the subject’s knowledge.

      More than this, hypnosis can be induced without warning during natural sleep, though the feat is rare and is performed only with predisposed subjects. Not all persons are equally hypnotizable. Most persons – and that stands somewhat around the 90 per cent range – who are sound in body and mind resist hypnosis or are affected only very superficially. Idiots and lunatics are absolutely refractory. Neuropaths and hysterical persons, on the other hand, are very susceptible and make ideal subjects.

      We cannot therefore going by your defense of Ese say she was neuropathic nor hysteric as at the time she engaged in sexual intercourse as she alleged with Pastor Biodun. She was of sound mind, and thus, could never had been hypnotized.

      Also, I’m beginning to think this is a grand conspiracy of sorts to rubbish Pastor Biodun. Whatever group is behind Ese and her allegations stink of mediocrity.

      She wants attention, which is why she immediately had a blog up and running. I guess she also wants to be a counsellor, seeing the mails she’s published and her responses to them. That’s all arranged! It is indeed pathetic of her as I cannot recall the Linda Ikeji’s being off to this sort of very poor start. My point: It wasn’t necessary for her to interrupt Pastor Biodun’s ‘Blues’ for her ‘Reggae’ to blast! If she’s got talent, she’d no doubt be spotted.

      Now my plot is successfully unfolding. By the time I’m half way through with Ese and her goons, you’d all be sorry you found yourselves on Y Naija.

      Sean Efetega August 24, 2013 7:02 pm
      • Now you are being to sound pathetic….or are you try to seek social media relevance via this story? You say “your plot”, well I hope that includes supporting your claims with FACTS!!!

        Observer August 25, 2013 1:27 am
        • Exactly! And guess what, you’d be shocked! Very soon, hypocrites!

          Sean Efetega August 25, 2013 3:07 am
          • Awwww, man in the mirror has finally identified himself! Congratulations on your discovery of self…being a hypocrite that is!

            You are obviously looking for someone to engage you in this mindless banter but guess what, no further utterance from you would be dignified with a response. I mean, it’s pointless!!! The quality of your mind shines through your lines and it’s not even worth the attention you ever got!

            Seek focus elsewhere, I stand on a higher pedestal which is evidently causing you a neck sprain. Gaze lower, you’d find someone else on your level to rampage the muddy puddles with.

            All the best with your ‘Voltronic’ Adventure!

            Observer August 25, 2013 10:47 am
    • Yeah, I quite understand your present predicament. Whenever Nigerians get confronted by things they cannot comprehend, or better still can’t defeat intellectually, all such things are labelled “Godless.” You cannot attract sympathy to yourselves by labeeling me as that simply because your weaknesses are exposed. Your worst fears are staring right back at you now because this incident will sure turn out a nightmare!

      Sean Efetega August 25, 2013 3:18 am
    • I guess you find me extraordinarily too intelligent for you to argue further with. Now your lengthy notes have been reduced to single line sentences, your rhetoric power diluted, and grammatical sequences badly altered. There’s more to come from this very young man. Yes, I exist!

      Sean Efetega August 25, 2013 3:12 am
    • She’s not brave, she’s evil and destructive! If she wanted inner peace, why not go for counselling with another pastor from some other church? I’ve not in all my life heard of anything as internet confession. She wanted something from Pastor Biodun, didn’t get it, and now she’s crazily embittered with vengeance. I guess the Holy Bible is afterall right. “Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned.”

      Sean Efetega August 25, 2013 3:40 am
      • “I guess the Holy Bible is afterall right. “Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned.””

        What???? A quote from the bible you say???? Good grieve, that is an IDIOM not a verse of the scripture!!!!!

        This is so pathetic, sad & desperate of you! gosh!!!

        Are you for real? August 25, 2013 10:54 am
      • To be exact, the full quote is,

        “Heaven has no rage like love to hatred turned, Nor hell a fury like a woman scorned.” It was penned by William Congreve

        Haba Sean Efetega, Google is your friend nah!!! lmao!

        Are you for real? August 25, 2013 6:06 pm
        • How much were you guys able to squeeze out of Pst Fatoyinbo? Lagbaja nothing for youuuuuuuu!!!!!!!

          Efetega Sean August 25, 2013 9:24 pm
        • Observer where are you? Have you seen Ese’s x factor audition on you tube? Hahahahah!!! Pathetic rapper. Yeye foul. People she even went for an audition and failed. She is no good at anything and she wants to destroy others who have succeeded. When u see her in that audition you’d know she’s a hustler! Complete Ashewo! Google her name and add x factor video. Observer, I promised you that I’d shock you. My plans are still in motions.

          Efetega Sean August 25, 2013 11:58 pm
      • I don’t support how Ese went about this but if this is how she wants to let the guilt off her chest so be it,am sure she know the ripple effect of her action…And Ese there is no moral lesson In your story……
        Sean I don’t know who or what your fighting for?? Am sure shez not scorned…ya’ll need Jesus thank you

        Girl August 26, 2013 8:45 am
  • may God 4give the parties involved!!!!!its a shame.i smell blackmail thou but i know that God sees it all.And 4all those involved in dragging any anointed man of God ‘s name in d degrading muds,ur judgement wld be here on earth.Finally,if the pastor really got involved in d mess,he should run to God 4 forgiveness of sins and make amends where necessary.Thanks

    seyi August 25, 2013 3:47 am
    • Seyi, well said! You are indeed one Christianity is proud to have! You are an objective Young Nigerian!

      Sean Efetega August 25, 2013 4:47 am
  • My advice is dat pple should study d word of God meanin readin d bible on daily basis and see wat God commanded his children to do and nt to do.I would blame u sist Ese cos right frm d moment d pastor told u to take alcohol in dat hotel room u should hv knw dat dis is nt a man of God and say frankly Get thee behind me satan and move out bt u yelded bt I would nt blame u too maybe u were nt spiritually sound in scriptures.leave everytin to God,ask God to forgive u and also pray for him.follow peace wit all men and holiness witout which non of us can see God.

    alfred August 25, 2013 7:27 am
    • Nice one Alfred. From Ese’s story, you’d see that the pastor was tired of having anything sexual to do with her that’s why he broke contact with her. Seeing this, she approached pastor Flo, who gave her the shocker by telling her Pastor Biodun had confessed to him. That account alone tells you that the man felt guilt and wanted no more to partake in sin.

      Apparently embittered from not being able to use Pastor Biodun to fulfill her selfish gains, she decided to hit the internet to do damage to the pastor’s reputation. I keep asking this, why did she decide to record her conversation with pastor Flo? I’d help you out by telling you that it was for the purpose of blackmail. Pastor Biodun ran to God for mercy, and that didn’t go down well with her because she most probably wanted the affair to continue.

      As for those asking the man of God to repent, he has a long time ago, and Ese’s story attests to this since she stated what Pastor Flo told her. The question here is, what is Ese’s reason for this public confession? Why did she not tag along by seeking repentance the way Pastor Biodun did? Besides, we have no reason to accuse him of engaging in sin since he hasn’t made any comment yet.

      Sean Efetega August 25, 2013 9:31 am
  • Only a few could do this. Whatever is the truth. I hope you fine peace n be a better person in all.

    Monica August 25, 2013 10:52 am
    • Observer, why does the reply botton always dissapear immediately after you post? That says it all, loosers! Rot in hell sponsors of blackmailers and prostitution!

      Sean Efetega August 25, 2013 1:03 pm
  • I salute you dear for your courage. May God help n deliver us from all this wolves in sheeps clothings who are out to devour the unsuspecting and innocent christians. May God strengthens you more. Fear not you are not alone in this. God is watching over you. Hold on tight to what you believe n stand firm

    jumokeosho August 25, 2013 4:27 pm
  • Wonder what conscience she is trying to rid herself off? Didn’t she know before she opened her legs for the man, assuming he did have an affair with her. She enjoyed it while it lasted, did she not? That she can’t get on with her life after all is said and done dsnt mean she shld ruin someone else’s. Talking abt level of Grace, well, she shld have stayed to learn, cos we surely do live in God’s grace and mercies and the pastor knows that well. We all do fall short but we should becareful not to abuse that grace. She is a consenting adult, a foolish one at that. She should learn d meaning of the word abuse before she uses it.

    Zuriah Jones August 25, 2013 5:00 pm
  • Dia re 1million nd one tin wrong wit dis so calld confession! Now I hav so many questions to ask d so calld ese face to face if I can,bt same question everyone has been askin,Did he rape u? No,U wrote dat d sexualy issh continued for 1week DAILY nw let’s annalyz it,daily means u kept goin to his hotel room everyday to go hav sex wit him,u wake up feel healthy,u bath,dress up nd go to his hotel room witout being forced nd u kept sleepin wit him! U were in ur right senses while doin all dis tins,Now let’s come down to d part u said he askd u to kiss him nd u found ursef doin it,den u guys had sex,Now ese u old enuf to knw wat a NO means,nd if u were a good christian u would hav rejectd nd rubuked d evil in pstr Biodun bt u did it cuz u wantd to nd u kept goin bak daily to do it cuz u ENJOYED it…its has simple as dat! U Enjoyed it while it lasted den wats all dis rubbish u wrote? U commited fornication wit ur pastor nd came online givin us stroies like we re babies? Do we look like God dat u suppose to confess ur sins to? Pastor biodun neva forced u,it was a mutual agreement btw d both of u now u come online tellin us he hypnotized u like re u cwazie? U a disgrace to womanhood nd Don’t eva kall ursef a strong woman cuz u not one! U knw wat a strong woman is? She wil reject d offer immediately nd walk d hell outta dat hotel room neva to contace d pastor,u slept wit him nd u claimin one tin here! If am ur mother I wil kill u 1st for sleepin wit ur pastor for good one week den comin online to broadcast it! So all ur frnds dat u told re not enuf? Writing dis is just so useless cuz u made no single point y u confessin,abi dis place looks like a confessin unit to u? See my sister u just a cheap slut,u were not abused at all,or manipulated in anyway,u did it outta ur own free will so shut ur mouth up nd go get a job abeg! U just annoyin wit dis ur stupid stroy mtcheeeew Godforgive u

    betty August 25, 2013 10:07 pm
    • Betty, you have finished the matter! I hereby appoint you my second in command. Do you know that Dr. Mike Murdock of America has supported Pastor Biodun? Abeg nor let person tell, read it online for yourself ooooo. Breeze don blow, and fowl yansh don open!

      Efetega Sean August 25, 2013 10:57 pm
    • @michael may d Good lord bless u wit more of solomon’s wisdom! U just said it all….a prostitute only realized she is raped after d check bounced dats just wat I see in dis her story! U did it whole heartedly,u were not boundled to his hotel room everyday neither were u kidnappd nd raped for 1week by him,it was a mutual concent nd agreement of d two of u nd now u came online to tell everyone….she shud first remove dat heading sef cuz she was not abused its nt even closed to it,she shud stop blamin d pastor for wat dey. Both did nd tryin to make pple feel pity for her,she slept wit her pastor its d simple ugly truth nd she is suppose to seek d face of d lord nd not cause me havoc,if I knw dis lady I swear imma beat her up for dis story! Its just total blackmail,nd I wonder for wat reason! May d lord forgive her cuz he is a merciful God nd may God forgive d pastor too! Shalom

      betty August 25, 2013 10:36 pm
    • Observer, Nwanne! Are you still there? Abi you don take off? Come out now, let us beat you to pulp. IDIOT! More soldiers are coming awake, and we are forming an army against Ese. Useless stupid prostitute who wants to blackmail because of love for money.

      Efetega Sean August 25, 2013 11:06 pm
      • Sean efe,na u be fool!!! I knw say if d fatoyinbo guy fuck ur mama for ur face na so u go still dey defend am say na ur mama seduce am…. Wetin remain na why u no just hang urself …. I don talk all this peasy haired pastors with their 21st century anoiting ,them bad well well… Wht if this story is true??? Your pevert green snake pastor will burn for it …and u ? U will roast with him in hell fucking bastard!! I don’t knw ese or efe or ur coza pastor fatoyinbo… But u ?? U be goat!!

        midefash August 28, 2013 7:16 am
  • Get your facts and you can distort them as you like.

    Mustapha August 26, 2013 8:27 am
  • As the good book say leave all d judgement to God, God fights for his own. He has d final say. He who is holy should cast d first stone. As christÍans let’s all leave Gód to vindicate his own

    lauren August 26, 2013 6:18 pm
  • ese walter stop lie

    ekima tomoworio eloghom August 26, 2013 9:37 pm
  • hi ese walter, I hate when people lie about people, are can u sayin that u was sleeping with ur pastor but it very bad. well if na me you going tell me how he dick look like and I go show u sayin I m from niger delta bcos i cant not just lie, he is not going to be d first or last for d story that u re comin to tell people now so u want people to believe ur story. pls stop use my pastor name to lie, so u going about sleeping with men of God and use there names to lie, pls stop judge my pastor bcos I m not happy wit dis story now. you re a street dog and a useless, shame girl that is you ese walter, pls all members of coza should start pray for pastor biodun now bcos it not easy to be a pastor by d way he is a human being like us pls. we need to help to clear his name, ese you need to see a doctor now bcos you re going gaga crazy, you need to check in to rehab home now. well for me I love my pastor so anything they re talking I will not believe them, my sister ese with dis behavior no man will marry you, so stop lie with d man of God bcos you going to hell my girl. from ekima tomoworio eloghom

    ekima tomoworio eloghom August 26, 2013 10:30 pm
  • Women deal with rejection differently, often they want to get even by doing anything that can potentially hurt the man in anyway. Professionally or otherwise.

    Walter knew what she was getting into and I can only imagine what her expectations were. But in the end the man moves on and she’s transfixed and bewildered. And by going public she’s just made a bigger fool of herself.

    jimi August 27, 2013 9:44 am
  • hi ese, u re just frustration babe, no man want to marry u so u want to destroy ur pastor and his family. it will not take u anywhere in ur life, u re d biggest fool in d world. or someone pay u to set he up bcos d money will finish one day but u need God in ur life.

    ekima tomoworio eloghom August 27, 2013 3:25 pm
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