We are all aware of the darkness that lurks beneath the happy exterior of Christmas. This jolly time of year is also the same time of year that depression becomes difficult to bare. Some people struggle with finances and the darker and colder climate can isolate people as much as it can bring them together. It was on Christmas Eve that a 21-year-old man decided to end his life, and he did so shortly after saying goodbye to his friends and family on Facebook.

Antjuan Miguel Colvin, from California, wrote a long post on Facebook at nine o’clock that evening. Within the hour Colvin committed suicide. He wrote:

“To all my friends and family on Facebook. Thank you all you have all made an impact on my life some of you good some of you not but you all are loved I hope you all have wonderful lives. I know its not my time to go but I cannot take living any longer. So as of tonight I will end my life. Again thank you for being apart of my life. Merry Christmas…….Goodbye.”

Colvin drove his car out onto the railroad tracks and at 9:48pm he was struck by a train going 75 mph.

Some friends of Colvin were shocked by his death. Others knew that Colvin had been struggling with depression for a while.  Now every year during the holidays his family (and the conductor of the train that struck him) will remember him with sadness and regret.

– The 360 Experiment