In the midst of having nothing, I decided to do a thankful post. Everyday on Facebook, I was thankful for something. A week into it, I realized that there was a lot to be thankful for.
Unlike most of you, I started out 2012 not wanting to be a part of it. Yeah, I was suicidal – with a plan and all. The scene in the movie xxx, I was gonna recreate the scene, but end it by dropping the radio in the tub. Oh well, I didn’t.
Thus my 2012 started. My days were long and my nights were longer. I was thoroughly depressed and weighed in at 120Ibs. I spent the days mulling over my problems and the lack of a fix for it.
Somehow I made it through January, and February, and was certain my life changing moment was coming in March – well, it didnt come.
I’ve learnt how to live with nothing. I’ve learnt to be happy with nothing. I’ve fought with God, made up with me, and I’m happy to KNOW that He loves me. He told me himself. One thing I learnt is to thank Him when we have nothing. Sometimes we wait until we have that job, that husband, that house before we begin to thank Him.
In the midst of having nothing, I decided to do a thankful post. Everyday on Facebook, I was thankful for something. A week into it, I realized that there was a lot to be thankful for. People LOL’ed as I was hankful for underwear box, laundry baskets, friends, LOMLs etc, but these were things I didn’t even have earlier in the year.
And just like that, 2012 took a turn for the better. First from an unexpected large sum of money that I ‘had’ with a friend, to starting my own company… which became companies, to having my own place. 2012 started for me in May. The month of May heralded the beginning of new things for me. I finally put a scissors in my shameful hair and decided to start all over again.
I weighed a ridiculous 120Ibs on my 5′ 7″ frame. (I had overheard someone talking about why any woman would look like the letter ‘I’) just like that I gained back all my lost weight and I’m now currently on a diet. Even though I made a decision not to date for the rest of the year, love still found me. (Ife mi, I’m thankful for you).
Peace that passeth all understanding. Joy unspeakable. He gave it to me.
Same May, I decided to take a break from the dating world. I mean who would date someone like me? I was just a walking bag of bones and a pile of dead dreams. So I took a break to reset. A couple of months in, God had enlarged my coast (wiggles boobs against the computer screen) making me very ‘courageous’ and ‘reasonable. Now I’m chasing suitors away left and right.
If I were to sum up my greatest achievement in 2012, I’d say ‘joy unspeakable’. The kind of joy that makes people wonder exactly where it’s coming from. A new job? A new boyfriend? Some inheritance. No. Just joy from himself that makes me bubble inside even when things are not going according to plan, because you know that He has something bigger planned ahead.
And so with 2012 ending, I’m looking forward to 2013 thankful that even when I gave up on Him, He did not give up on me. I’m thankful for life, because if I had succeeded in taking mine. How would I have learnt to Etighi? *shudders at the thought*
2013 is going to be just awesome! I can feel it.
Bumight is a medical doctor based in the US with a special interest in obstetrics and hynecology. She’s equal parts shy and outspoken depending on the situation. She blogs at www.this-is-why-I-write.blogspot.com and tweets from @bumight
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